I should be sleeping. But I can't. Instead I am in bed, thinking - listening to songs that make me think of him. Why? STILL. What is my problem?? I am pathetic! I have moved on, mostly. Friday was his birthday. I messaged him on Facebook, "Happy Birthday." No good came out of it. I feel like such a wreck. Why doesn't he at least care of my existence??? :( I keep hoping one day he will want to be in my life again. Not like that, but as a friend. Ha - what kind of friend treats me this way? Yet, I can't let go. Thinking back a year ago, I never would have seen myself here.  | 
