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Name: Angelina
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Birthday: 11/20/1990
Gender: Female
Interests: Singing, Acting, Dancing, Writing Songs, Derek Jeter, Music, Phone, Internet, TV, Being With Friends, Drawing, Yankees, etc.
Occupation: Student, Pat's Peak
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AIM:  xCrazy Angelx3
AIM:  Baby Linax3
Member Since:
12/5/2004
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| It has been so long since I wrote in here.
I honestly thought I wouldn't write in this anymore.
But I'm bored and procrastinating...
And had to upload a pic on here anyway...
So why not?
It is now 2009. This year is going to be big.
New president. Graduating. College.
Working. License (eventually?)
(Eighteen and still don't have my license) It's funny reflecting upon my last journal entry.
That guy that I wanted and "couldn't have"..
I somehow got...?
But then I ended it a few months later.
Long distance relationships really can get tiring... That "fool" I was still in love with is my best friend.
I'll always have the memories we shared...
But we both moved on I think.
He'll always be in my heart. <3 But now I'm back with Zach.
Go figure, right?
We've been together since my birthday (Nov).
It was hard, he didn't want to trust me...
He was still hurt from last time.
So we actually were pretty distant for a while.
Things are going well now. I'm happy with him. =)
I spent New Year's Eve at his house.
He said, "You know what's funny?"
I said, "What?"
"We spent the beginning & end of the year the same."
I didn't know what he meant by that.
"With a kiss," he said.
He was at my house last New Year's Eve.
First thing I did was kiss him beginning of '08.
And then the end of '08.. and now beginning of '09.
Life is ironic sometimes... Can't believe I'm a senior.
Never really thought life would come so fast.
I am unsure where I want to go to college.
Pretty sure I'm staying in New Hampshire.
Otherwise, I'm unsure of my major.
I definitely want to continue theatre though. Vacation is almost over.
And everything I needed to do...
I still haven't gotten done.
I've gotten really bad at putting things off lately... Well, I need to go pick up my paycheck. Maybe I'll make another entry sometime.
If not, then this is the latest... <3 *The more the light shines through me, I pretend to close my eyes!* | | |
| Okay, so Zach and I broke up Thursday.
That needed to be done because there was no happiness anymore.
He was always sad, and I was always mad.
I gave it a couple weeks, and it didn’t improve much.
That’s fine, we are still good friends.
Although, he still loves me and wants to be more.
But... we just can’t. :/Of course I’m still in love with him*.
(I’m not talking about Zach...)
If he doesn’t know that, he’s a fool.
But, that doesn’t really matter anymore.
So I’m doing the best I can to just forget it.
But every little thing reminds me of him. And then there’s him**...
He’s... well, amazing.
But the more I want him...
The less I can have him.
It’s complicated. Love is complicated.
I’m beginning to question love. Is love even real anymore? *I keep bleeding, keep, keep bleeding love!* | | |
| It's vacation...And I have to write a research paper, create an outline for my french essay that I will later have to completely memorize for my french speech, and do chemistry homework. I think it'll be easiest to start off with chemistry. Things are still awkward. But that's life. I have a doctor's appointment Tuesday and I'm going to a work call Wednesday to get community service points for National Honor Society. Hopefully Zach will go to that too. Wednesday will be a month since we've been together. Right now Zach is up north snowmobiling with his family and his dad's friends. He left last night and won't be back until Monday or so. Hopefully I'll be able to get together with him that day. It feels so weird knowing he's far away, rather than five minutes down the road. Paul and Jess are doing well I guess. She got him a new chain. That just pisses me off because when we were dating I got him TWO chains and he broke BOTH of them. They were not cheap. The first one was $85, then the second one was $75. So, total that's $160 of my money that I spent when I don't even have a job. He told me he was going to fix the second one he broke, but never ever did. Then I see him come to school in a brand new chain and he expects me to not know where it came from?! I'm not stupid. Whatever. Even though this hurts me... I can't stay away from him. *There ain't nothing you can do to make me turn away from you!* | | |
| So it's Valentine's Day... And for three years I've been used to having it with Paul. It's really weird. (Yeah, in case you don't know, we broke up in December... but it feels like it happened a few weeks ago). I tried to get him back, but failed. That's fine, it was my fault anyway. But he has moved on to his new girfriend, Jess. And I have a new boyfriend, Zach. I really like him a lot. It's just... different. Paul and I are trying to stay friends. But.. it's not working out very well. I miss him so much... even just as a friend. I wish we could talk more. It's weird to have someone be your everything one day, and then act like you barely know each other the next. :/ Gahh, inside I'm dying knowing he is so happy with her. He sees her all the time. And he does things he never did with me (even after three years). I can't help but hate her. Whatever. I need to move on, and I'm trying. But it's so freaking hard. Doubt I'll ever succeed. Meanwhile, Zach and I have been doing alright. He's a sweetheart. He lets me call him anytime. :) We fall asleep on the phone together all the time. It's cute. Then we talk to each other in the morning before school. He lives like five minutes away, so that's good. I'm hoping he'll help me fll that empty void I constantly feel. Well, we'll see. *I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night!* | | |
| I finally got a cellphone!!! :DI got it from Stephen & JoJo for my birthday!
It's really cute.. it's a pink Verizon MotoRazr! :D
It's about time... :P 
*It's too late to apologize, it's too late!* | | |
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